pine road

Naslov sporočila: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 3:15 am

tag, theo smitten

oddly enough, she felt somewhat in peace, as he passed her the heavy revolver. she could hold it pretty much perfectly; it seemed as an extension of her hand, it wasn't a foreign object. it just.. it fitted perfectly. who would have thought that this would be the new her - from all the possibilities, from all the things she could become, she would end up shooting a gun in the pennypack creeks. she wasn't all that good, but she was quite sure that theo could teach her. teach her to shoot a gun perfectly, teach her to aim and fire as good as he could. they didn't speak of it, but they both knew why she was holding the revolver, they knew why he was teaching her to use it.. and at the same time, it must have broken both their hearts just a little. knowing that after this, after this act of cruelty, the old cynthia would be gone for good. she wasn't sure he understood it - she, on the other hand, could see it with perfect clarity.

the past fifteen minutes, she had been trying - almost too hard, it might seem - to shoot the target, an old rusty can he found somewhere along the way. they were probably running out of bullets, still she couldn't hit the god damn thing. "this is bullshit," she finally murmured to herself, before turning back to theo, lowering the gun. it took some time to get used to the almost electric wave that went through her body as the bullet fired it's way from the gun. at first, it felt as if something in her hand exploded. now? well, now it actually felt quite good. it felt like she had the power - nobody else did. she could finally.. decide on her own destiny. she was the one holding the pistol. "i can't do it, it's too far away," she sighed, knowing there was no way what so ever she could hit the target. she was wondering what was going on in his mind as he was watching her shoot. he seemed more quiet as usual, a real teacher. he demonstrated how things are done, and then he let her find her own way of dealing with them. which seemed fun at first, but at this point she was simply too tired. and quite bored, too.

she made a few steps towards him, looking directly into his eyes. what was he thinking, really? what crossed his mind as he was watching her? did it make him want her? the fact that she was the one holding the gun, the fact that she was the one in control - did that make him want her more? "do you wanna help me out with this?" she asked, slightly raising her eyebrows, waiting for his affirmation. she imagined it to be like golf. or pool. where he shows her how to position her body, then he covers her hands with his and does her job for her. their bodies touching one another in a subtle manner. she didn't need that in her vengeance plan, but at that moment, it just seemed as something that would feel perfect against her skin.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 4:16 am

tag, cynthia smitten

sorry ker je tole ekstra lame bwahah

It’s been well over half an hour since she first fired a shot towards the can that he’d placed not too far away. But need he mention that just like the first one every other bullet ended up somewhere completely different. He considered himself a good teacher, but with a student like her, it seemed like every word of correction made her feel more and more uncomfortable. And as he told her to stand straighter for, was it maybe tenth time, she started slowly giving up in despair. He knew it would be for the best if she just stopped trying and leave all the dirty business to him, but despite all the failing she still fired again. And again. Until she ran out of ammo. “Okay, these are expensive. You need to try harder now,” he pushed her and handed her another mag to recharge. She was, without a doubt, looking all sexy with her hands gripping onto a revolver, but it would be way hotter if she actually managed to hit the target. But he said nothing; she was still his little Cynthia, this innocent looking girl that had decided to take law into her bare hands, to deal with the rapist her own way, and without even thinking about consequences , he agreed to help her. In a way. For as long as they’ve been practicing, he’s felt like a freaking shop, throwing away magazines, just watching money fly away with each missed shot, but he remained silent. She didn’t though. She was getting all pissy with herself turning towards him, but at least she pointed the gun to the ground this time, which was quite an achievement for her after having almost blown his head away in her early attempts of shooting it.

“What do you mean it’s too far away? It’s just a couple feet. Do you think he’ll just stand still begging you to shoot him? He’ll run for his life and it will get harder. Harder than hitting a can,” he snorted out when she complained, knowing she wasn’t far from finally hitting it. But that meant nothing. She had to get her accuracy straight or he will by no means let her deal with the bastard on her own. Ever since he found her lying on the ground all shaken up she’s been pressuring him to teach her how to defend herself. To help her hurt the person that had raped her, to help her get it all out onto the one that took everything away from her. And when she asked for help once more, there was no way he could say no. Partially because he was sick of hearing her sigh hopelessly, but also because leaving her to do it all on her own obviously wasn’t the very best way of teaching her shoot. “Okay, so let’s do it together this time,” he jumped to her side touching her right hand with his. “So what did we say, your feet shoulder-wide apart, slightly lean forward,” he muttered out as he pressed his body against hers and his hand ran down her thigh to remind her of one more thing, “bend your knees just a bit ... and shoot.” God was this difficult. Feeling her warm body next to his, her heart beating faster than the wings of a hummingbird. “Do it.”

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 5:03 am

tag, theo smitten

as he started talking about what might happen when the day comes, she turned her face away, trying to focus on a spot in the woods on the other side of the river. his words were so terribly sensible, but she didn't want to listen to one bit of what he had to say. he had no business talking about what might happen; he wasn't included in the plan, no matter how eager he was to protect her. he was her friend, he was her ally, but he certainly wasn't a part of her vendetta. she didn't need his logical conclusions, she just needed him to help her, to teach her do what she needed to do to get.. closure. perhaps a peace of mind. "well, i'm not gonna do all that great if i can't even hit that can, now, am i?" she finally looked at him again, raising her eyebrows, grinning sarcastically at him. she was so done with being the nice girl; she wasn't exactly evil or bad now, not at all, she just wasn't what she used to be. the shy girl that felt the need to apologize for everything she did - or even didn't do wrong.

she waited for him to approach her, and immediately it was like something strongly rushed though her body. one touch wasn't enough; by the time he was only holding her hand, she wanted - and needed - him to touch her whole body, touch her anywhere and everywhere. "okay," she nodded willingly, as he pressed his body onto hers and she couldn't help but let her weight lean on his strong chest for a little. just so that she could fully feel his strong body, covering hers, which was skinny and weak. she felt safe in his arms, as did she the day that he held her when she was slowly falling asleep, still traumatized from the events of the darkest night of her life. but he just held her, made her feel warm, made her feel loved. she'd never forget that; it was perhaps the reason he was the only one she could actually bare to look at, the only one that was allowed to touch her, the only one that didn't make her feel as if she was being violated once more, all the same as it happened on that dark alley. she bent her knees, just a little, when she felt his warm hand on her thigh; her body shivered a bit, but it was a good feeling, it just made her realize even more so what she wanted. "alright," she spoke softly, then she pulled the trigger. the bullet hit the can directly and threw it off the rock where it was set.

a smile slowly extended along her lips; she did it. that was all she needed, a gentle push, a warm touch. she turned his head towards him, not moving her body at all; she liked the small distance between their faces, the fact that a possibility of a kiss was hanging in mid-air. she looked at his lips at this point, thinking whether or not it was a smart thing to do, finally returning to his eyes. "that was easier than it seemed," she said, again lowering the arm that was holding the gun; she turned around in his embrace, now facing him with her whole body. "do you wanna fuck me?" she softly asked after a minute or so of complete silence, looking directly into his eyes, wondering, if it was what he fantasized about when he was needy. was it her? did he want her? would he be prepared to take her, to make her body his own - even when he knew what she had been through? she wanted him, that was certain. "i know you want me. you look at me and try to hide it, but it's there. i can see it." she leaned closer, her lips almost touching his; yet, not quite. "you can have me if you want me," she whispered, feeling the passion overtaking her body completely.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 8:16 pm

tag, cynthia smitten

Her tiny fingers curled securely around the grip of the revolver and she moved her legs just the way her told her, sliding into a perfect position as he touched her thigh ever so slightly. It was nothing like that, not really after all the attention he’s given her on that unfortunate night when he was basically her saviour. He didn’t want to, but she asked him to stay in bed with her and how could he say no to someone who was barely able to hold themselves together. How was he supposed to say no to his little girl, to this cute little blondie that was now shy and innocent no more? “Just remember what I told you about shooting; the more nervous you are, less chance there is for a clean shot. So just relax your body and show me what you got,” he whispered into her ear as he slid his hands back up to her waist. No, not for the sake of being all slimy around her, but to help her stand firmer on her feet, to make her believe in herself more, to just help her release the pain she’s felt inside, be it by simply hitting a can or the asshole that abused her weeks ago. He wasn’t expecting her to hit the target on their first attempt, but for a former nun she was quite a talented gal. “Good job, I knew you could do it,” he had to shout this time because they both wore their ear plugs still and although he could move away from her side, he lingered there for some more time. He arms were shaking from all the excitement and deep inside he was proud of the girl she’s become. She was strong and determined, ready to deal with the shit life hook her up with, and although he really missed his quiet little Cynthia, the new one seemed just as good or even better.

“See, it’s not that hard, you just have to ...” the last part of his sentence left hanging in the air between them when she turned around and asked ... asked what he just wasn’t ready to hear. It left him speechless and he stared into her direction not really seeing what he was supposed to. A girl. A woman that seemed like a perfect fit for him, but wasn’t really. She was still way too innocent for him; he was after all a murderer, a freaking cheat, a criminal. “Why ... why would you ask for something like that?” he stuttered out shaking his head a little trying to clear his mind of one single thought – yes, yes he wanted to fuck her. Oh, yes, he wouldn’t mind having her in his arms, he wouldn’t mind kissing her all over, caressing her like his one and only. “What do you mean it’s there?” she baffled him with her face now only inches away from his. Her breath feeling so soft on his face, her body pressed against his and her hand still wrapped around the gun. God was she sexy. “Cynthia ... it’s not that I don’t like you or want you, because to hell with it, I do, I really do, but that’s not you talking. You don’t really want that. You’re not sure of what you want. You can’t ... I’m no good for you, okay?” he slid his hands up her arms and settled on her bare shoulders. Did she really just ask him to screw her? Here? In the middle of the woods?

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 9:07 pm

tag, theo smitten

she was expecting a similar reaction; she slightly freaked him out. she was wondering if the reason was the fact, that she knew.. or the fact, that he wanted her and wasn't prepared to go for it. she would give it to him, she would give him her body in a second; he was the only living person she was prepared to trust her body to. the only person that she believed - despite the past they might have had - would never do anything to harm her. "why not?" she shrugged, truly not understanding what the issue with what she said actually was. she knew he wanted her, she remembered every single subtle touch. he, perhaps, thought she couldn't see it; she, on the other hand, saw everything. "you want me.. you want to touch me, to feel me," she meaningfully whispered into his lips, looking straight at them, not taking the time to return the stare he was giving her. "you want to know what i taste like." as did she. she wanted to taste him as well.

"you understand what i mean," she said, being completely confident of her words. oh, god, perhaps she really did go crazy, perhaps that was why she was standing there, demanding something even theo knew was completely wrong. it was simply so uncharacteristic, it wasn't her. god, she used to be so shy, she used to be this silent and frightened lamb.. but none of that, not anymore. she was a new woman now. she was a woman, finally, and as a woman she knew exactly what she wanted. at that moment, there was only one thing - him. she needed him to caress her, to take over, to push her down and to take her; gently, yet strongly. she needed him. he was.. the only one that could do to her what she needed to be done. she tried before, yet the only thing she could feel was blinding pain. but not with him, of this she was certain; he would pleasure her as others could not.

"does it matter?" she couldn't understand why this was an issue to begin with. so what, if it wasn't her talking? why did it matter that he was no good? she was down his road already, fucking or no fucking. he couldn't stop her, not that what he was doing was actually slowing down the process. he was helping with everything else, so why not take advantage of the only thing that was left and was actually pleasurable? her eyes met his again, and she didn't look away as she started do lower her body to the side. she almost knelt in front of him, putting the revolver she was still holding on the ground. at this point she was low enough so that she could perfectly please him with her mouth and it surely must have made him just that more needy.. but she didn't want to do that. she didn't want to do anything; she wanted him to satisfy her in any and every way it was possible. she moved back up, again staring into his eyes, as if this was a competition, as if the one that could stare longer would get what he desired. she slowly raised her hand, putting her shivery fingers on her chest, on the spot where the heart supposedly was. "you crave for me," she said, still staring at the spot. "don't deny yourself the pleasure. i want you to have me. i want you to taste me. you can be my first," she said at last, looking him directly in the eyes, as a sad smile crossed her lips. they both knew it was a lie, but it was a lie she would hope to be believable. a lie she would want to become reality.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 10:25 pm

tag, cynthia smitten

God he wanted to devour her lips and slip his hands everywhere they haven’t been yet. But he was trying to be decent, he really way. Ever since that night at his place when she cried her eyes out, because he was way too pushy, he acted differently around her. He tried to be her friend and protect her, although deep inside he felt so much more than just simple inclination. She was the only person that made him consider leaving all the shit behind, sweep all the bad stuff under the carpet and start off fresh. With her. She was the only woman he really cared for, the only woman that made him weep a little when she was hurt. When she was all torn and shaken up. “God, Cynthia, just stop with this stupidity. You don’t want it, you don’t need it. Let’s just focus on what we’re really here for,” he looked down but failed to step away. He just couldn’t. He felt this urge to hug her, pull her closer and kiss every inch of her beautiful face. She was right. He wanted her so badly he’d kill for her. He’d do anything just to have her there next to him, safe and sound. “No, I don’t, you’re wrong,” he shook his head no, not even thinking about meeting his eyes with hers. She’d know he lied. She’d know her words were truer than any other she’s ever spoken. But then again he didn’t think she could ever lie at all. She was perfect in his eyes, oh so perfect. And as she basically knelt down in front of him, he couldn’t force himself to look away. All the staring kept on going and it was a beautiful excuse for him to comb every imperfection on her bare skin, but even those were perfect to him. They really were. “Why are you doing this?” he muttered out again in despair, because she was literally torturing him. Knowing she wanted him, she wanted his hands in hers, his skin against hers, made his emotions harder to handle. It’s not that he was in love or something, he couldn’t be. But she actually was the first person he didn’t have the heart to use that same day he got a chance, she was the first person that saw goodness in him.

She was so right when she said he craved for her. He wished he could be the first man to set hand on her, to kiss her where she hasn’t been kissed yet, to show her a complete new level of lovemaking. But it was impossible, she was abused and all this was just her acting out after having been hurt. After all, he knew what if felt like. Trusting someone and feeling quite safe in a certain environment, but when things get out of control all of a sudden it’s too late. You’re changed. And you’re unable to become your old you. His eyes teared up a bit when he thought about his childhood and all the crap his father pulled on him, and they were – in a way – the same. Damaged. And he just couldn’t hurt her any worse. He caught her face between his palms and his thumb slipped across her lower lip. Oh, how beautiful she was. “Can I ... can I kiss you?” he begged pressing his forehead against hers, but he could not wait for an answer. His dried lips met hers for a split second and his hands slipped behind her neck to pull her closer into his embrace. It was all happening now, for real.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 06, 2013 11:08 pm

tag, theo smitten

by the time his palms surrounded her cheeks, she knew he had given up. given up on the attempts to rationalize her behavior, on the attempts to run away from what he really wanted and needed, the attempts to escape what they both desired. as she felt her finger on his lips, she already needed to try hard not to moan. oh god, he was so exciting, he was making her crazy with a bare touch; she needed more, she craved for more just as much as he did. and once that happened, there was no going back. she opened her mouth to give him a little encouragement after he asked whether or not it was okay to kiss her, but before she was capable of whispering the answer - the only logical answer, the answer 'yes' - his lips covered hers, taking away the ability to speak, but also to stop him, if she wanted. she didn't, but she felt a strange, yet pleasant feeling as he simply stole the kiss that would be his any way. her whole body shook, pleasant electricity, it seemed, flashed through it, as he pushed her closer to him, his lips still touching hers.

she closed her eyes; kissing him was so pleasurable.. she felt her head spinning. oh god, she needed more than that. she needed him, every small bit of him, she needed his bare skin, his hands on her body, his lips on all the right places. it was like she was on a whole new level of understanding the world. it now made sense, or - at least in a way it did. it was all that anyone could hope for, this lust, rushing through her body, the need for everything at once. "ooh god," gasped for air, tearing away from him, her hands leaning onto his chest. she needed to take a deep breath, then another, never detaching from his eyes. oh god. oh god, he was.. oh god, he was making her crazy. she couldn't even imagine what an orgasm must have meant, she was already in such heaven and all they did was.. all he.. oh god..

her hands wrapped around his neck so firmly, as if.. as if she was never prepared to let him go, as her body pressed onto his, her lips reaching for his this time. she doubted anything in life could feel this good, nobody could be as good as he was, as appealing, as sweet. she wanted.. she wanted to have the world with him, he was the only one she could have it with. "take me," she whispered as their lips detached once more. she ran her fingers through his hair, finally grabbing it strongly. "please," she whispered somewhere into his neck, where she pressed a strong kiss on his bare skin. "fuck me," she whispered, goosebumps running over her back. oh god, there was something so erotic in his touches.. she wondered how anyone could resist it. the urge was simply to strong. "here. now," she further demanded, her hands now running down the back of his torso, prepared to rip the clothes off him if it were necessary.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Tor Maj 07, 2013 9:29 pm

tag, cynthia smitten

That urge. Oh, that urge to have her there right next to him was too strong to handle, but he had to. He couldn’t use her like that when she was still so gentle, fragile and last but not least special to him. She was different, so much different than any other girl he’s been with and although he really wanted to be inside her, he felt like all this could do even more harm to her. He dared to kiss her lips though, he knew a gentle kiss wouldn’t cause her to completely lose it, so she traced her jaw with one of his palms and softly pressed his lips against hers. He wanted it to be just a peck, just a way of satisfying her to forget about what she was asking for. He wanted nothing but to make love to her, but not like that. Not here. Not so soon. Not right after she’s been raped. “Please, Cynthia, you don’t want this,” he gasped when she wrapped her hands around him and kissed him back. Passionately. Just as if she wasn’t this little girl anymore. Just as if she was only a shadow of a person he used to know. He didn’t want her to get too excited about all this because there was no way it would happen. Yet he didn’t step away, he stayed there so close to her he could see every single freckle on her face ... and that spark in her eyes, oh that spark – she really wanted him.

It seemed there was no other way out but to give her what she wanted. He still kissed her lips every once in a while, because they were just so soft and sweet, but she obviously wanted more. She ran her hands through his hair sinking into his neck where she kissed him and to hell with it, he was the one losing it now. God, how could she possibly change so drastically? Weeks ago she stood in the corner of his hall shaking like a scared little mousy and now here she was, asking him to fuck her senseless. Was this even real or was he just imagining it in his head? He wasn’t obviously he realized when she kept grabbing onto his body, demanding one thing. One single thing he desperately urged to do, but just couldn’t. “Hey, little one, you know you’ll regret it tomorrow,” he whispered into her ear as he gave her a tight squeeze and a gentle pat on the back. But they could still play this little game in which she’ll never win. “I’ll challenge you now, though. For each and every target you hit I allow you to take one piece of clothing off me. And yourself ... when and if you manage to hit so many,” he proudly smiled at her knowing she couldn’t possibly hit enough cans to strip him naked. No way. “But I’m not helping you this time. I’ll just sit here and watch you do your thing. And sleep if it gets too boring, alright?” he picked up the gun she dropped earlier and handed it back to her. God was she cute when she so eagerly grabbed the gun and started shooting it. She was no Lara Croft, but she could well be her alternate.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Tor Maj 07, 2013 10:11 pm

tag, theo smitten

she was quite disappointed as she realized perhaps he wasn't all as enthusiastic as she was. he was really holding back and for a little while she truly thought about the possibility of him.. not wanting her. but that would be madness, right? he just said.. he just said that.. she didn't understand what was happening, to be honest, she thought that everything was simple enough. he wanted her, she wanted him, she was prepared to have sex with him.. yet he pushed her away. she leaned on him a little while, every single one of his words digging a hole in her heart. it felt somewhat degrading. "perhaps you're the one who'll regret the missed possibility," she said, looking away, taking a step to the side. what was this game he was playing? she absolutely wasn't planning on playing it.

then again, something snapped in her, she felt a determination as strong as fire; it was obvious, her eyes lit up and there was no going back from that. "okay," she said, not even taking that one second of time to look at his eyes. oh, he was really playing her and she didn't like it one bit, but at the same time she wasn't going to let him fool around with her, not like that. "alright," she said again, pointing the gun he had given her onto one of the empty cans he previously put on the rocks as targets. "fucking bullshit," she murmured to herself, probably too silent for him to hear, as she pullet the trigger and one of the cans flew across the grass, one part of it detaching from the other. oh, she was dead serious; she didn't even look at him, obviously winning the silly game he had prepared in his head. what did he think? she wasn't going to show him inability, that was for sure. she pointed again, shoot again and another can successfully hit the floor.

she pointed the revolver the third time, prepared to shoot off yet another can, but as she pulled the trigger, nothing happened. the gun was empty, the sound it gave out was empty, the can remained still. she turned around, looked directly at his eyes, as she said what she had been thinking all this time: "this is bullshit. she threw the gun on the floor, not even taking one look at it - she was done playing this shitty game. "you know what," she said, walking up to him. "i'm done. i'm done playing your little game. if you want me, you can have me now, and if not, well then i guess here ended the lesson."

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Sre Maj 08, 2013 8:03 pm

tag, cynthia smitten

Oh yeah, he already regretted letting go off her body when she was so close he could see right into her soul. He regretted not taking the chance when she almost begged him to take her. Oh was he a fool. After all that has happened to here she seemed ready to finally enjoy the thing she never got to. To enjoy the gentle touches on her skin, because she certainly loved it when he kissed her. He knew, he felt she was starting to get all tense and excited when his tongue met hers and instead of a moan she let out this tiny little breath he still thought about. God yes, she was right. His eyes followed her perfect figure as he sat down to watch her fail at this game he made her play and there was this tiny piece of him hoping she’d actually hit all of them and make him strip down. Because there was nothing stopping him now. No fucking way. “Best of luck my dear,” he mumbled out and crossed his arms against his chest following her arms take this position he’s told her about. Everything she did was correct, she was a perfect student. A perfect human being. A perfect woman he turned down when she threw herself at him. Yes, he definitely was a fool. “That’s right, now shoot. Come on, don’t be scared,” he heard himself talk. He really wanted her to get better at this, he really wanted her to learn how to defend herself, but in now way he will let her own a gun. She was way too gentle for something like that. She didn’t know enough about guns to safely own one, not a chance.

He heard a bullet leave the barrel and the can fell down. She did it. She fucking did it again. Maybe this was a sign she wasn’t so fragile anymore. That she was freaking determined to shred this asshole’s body with every single round. He proudly nodded his head in case she’d look back at him, but she refused to. She kept going and hit another one. Guess she was lucky. Or just taking this ‘class’ damn seriously. “Woah, you’re doing great,” he shouted out and a smile eventually found a way onto his lips when they figured she ran out of ammo. It was about time. “So you did that on purpose,” he remarked with a smile still present on his face. “Do you think I’ll just strip naked now, because you managed to hit two of them?” Hell he would if she asked him to again. He’d just rip that shirt of his off and pull her closer again until her mind still wanted him. Until she still thought she could actually enjoy all of this. He stretched out his hand to catch hers and gestured towards this little spot on the blanket. If this was bound to happen, he wanted to do it slowly. Beautifully, just the way she deserved. His hand slipped towards her cheek as she sat down right next to him, her thigh touching his, shoulder to shoulder. “You’re beautiful, do you know that?” he whispered out as his hand slid lower and grasped onto her shirt to pull it off. “May I?” And she let him. She let him undress her and kiss her skin as he did so. She let him gently caress her body as they both lay down onto the blanket, no such thing as space between them. “Are you sure you want that?” he asked again not wanting to pressure her into any sort of thing she wasn’t completely sure of. And as she nodded her head yes, he pressed his lips against hers again, wrapping his arms around her tiny body pulling her gently on the top of his.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pet Maj 10, 2013 11:55 am

tag, theo smitten

doing great? Yeah, yes she was. She was just amazingly annoyed with the fact that he had turned her proposal down. What kind of guy would do that? She didn't find it characteristic at all, not for him. It wasn't at all what she expected from him, he seemed like such a carpe diem kind of bloke. Seize the day. Seize the moment. Still the moment passed and all she had left was a red blush on her cheeks, a result of how he turned her down. She was kind of angry, yet she did understand why he felt the need to push her away. She understood that in his eyes, she was still that little and fragile girl. He was the one that didn't get it; that little girl was long lost, utterly lost in the filth that covered her body. The shame. The need for vengeance. How could he even see a glimpse of the old cynthia in her? She couldn't understand. There was nothing there, not one of those innocent smiles, not one of those loving stares, there was nothing left. She felt like a shell; she could only feel passion; passion for him – and passion for destruction.

»i would like you to do that, yes,« she said as he asked her whether it was expected from him to now strip. She didn't mean to force him into anything – the simple thought of that was just too ironical –, yet she did need him to understand that that was what she wanted. Hell, not did she only want it, she needed it as well. She needed the touch of someone she could trust and now, quite awkwardly, he was the one and only person on the planet that she felt really did care for her. The person that picked her up from that dirty street, brought her home, cleaned and dressed her.. and then he held her, it was all she needed. A feeling of a different kind of love, the feeling of protective love, the feeling that this.. person, whoever he really was, would rip out the eyes of anyone who'd dare come close to her. And after all.. that was all she needed today too. Perhaps in a different form, yet the need was the same. Utter trust. That was what she wanted.

She followed him to the blanked he had put out before, perhaps planning a picnic or something – it seemed silly before, yet now she was quite happy to have a spot to point out as their own. It was the first time that she was firmly positive about something.. it was the first thing she was ever truly positive about. She needed him. She softly smiled as he complimented her looks, then nodded, as he pulled the shirt of her skinny body. The bruises were still there, yet they were slowly starting to fade. She didn't feel as if her body could ever again be seen as beautiful; too much damage had been caused, damage beyond repair. She closed her eyes as he gently put a million kisses, it seemed, on her naked skin. It felt heavenly; her body was screaming, but the scream was good. She could feel them, butterflies in her stomach, an enjoyable kind of awkwardness, a peace of mind that was screaming. And it all felt exceptional. »stop asking me,« she whispered gently, as she opened her eyes, her lips only an inch away from his. »i want you,« she said, her lips formed a sweet smile, something that would much more be expected from the former version of herself. For a moment, she felt beautiful again. »i trust you completely.« he raised her body onto his; she felt as if he was trying to prove to her that she was still on control. That this was a game she was leading. Her lips pressed onto his, her hands slowly moving from his cheeks down his neck and onto his shirt; she quite quickly unbuttoned it and helped him take it off, never departing from his lips for long. Then her hands went lower, unbuttoning his jeans; oh god, he was so good, she wanted to feel him in every and any way imaginable. She felt as if this.. this was the moment she was waiting for. Her fingers ran down the multiple tatoos on his naked torso; he had a lovely body, a muscular complexion, almost smooth skin – was that expected from someone that seemed so, well, viole before she truly knew him? How was it possible that now, now.. he was a changed man?

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pet Maj 10, 2013 5:58 pm

tag, cynthia smitten

mature content

After having asked her way too many times if she really wished to have him, she so confidently responded he really had no clue of what to do next. She was hot and obviously ready for him, but then again she was his little girl, or that’s what he naively hoped she was. Her face still looked the same, but she spoke differently and what hurt the most, she even looked at him in a different manner. She used to see him as someone who freaked her a bit (not that she enjoyed it, but she was fragile enough to find him intimidating), but now she seemed so chill around him, so much like him. So not the way she used to be. Yeah, that was the easiest way to explain what had happened to her. But to hell with it, she was on top of him already, leaning forward to meet his lips and it would be a sin if he didn’t kiss them, so soft they were. He quivered a bit when she ran her hands down his bare chest and stopped as she passed a tattoo, just as if she was making up stories for each and every one of them. He had some, but they weren’t all that interesting so he tried to focus on her softly moving back and forth; she probably didn’t think that would arouse him, but it did and he felt an erection building up down there. “Oh god, you’re driving me nuts and you’re not really doing anything, sweet mother of jesus,” he muttered out as he mouth slanted over his to give him another kiss. This time he deepened it and sucked gently onto her tongue just as he slid his hands onto her bare back and turned her over. “Tell me if you want me to stop,” he kept on going as he pulled away, desperately wanting to fuck her right there, but there was this tiny bit of doubt still lingering deep inside him.

Her hands slid down his muscular back, her legs sort of spreading under him, but it didn’t make it any easier. He still had to pull her pants down and get rid of his, but without even parting from her, he managed to snap her buttons open and with a little help of hers, her shorts were long gone and so was her underwear. “Oh man, you’re perfect,” he just couldn’t stop complimenting her, breathing heavily against her lips and unzipping his fly at the same time. Feeling her skin right there against his made his heart skip a beat and his blood warm with pure pleasure. She was panting by now so he obviously wasn’t the only one enjoying this, and he really freaking hoped she’d say something if she disliked his touches. They got heavier and more passionate with each second and he found his hands roaming lower and lower, until he started gently rubbing her inner thighs and nibbling at her neck at the same time. “You still sure you want this?” he now talked just so he had something to do as he moved his lips across her body and landed somewhere lower, cupping one of her breasts in his hands and licking another until he finally settled onto her pink nipple that instantly hardened. He desperately wanted to make her feel special, and needed, which she definitely was. He needed her now, he really did. He was so close to just coming all over her, but he had to slow it all down for the sake of the pleasure he wanted to give her.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Sob Maj 11, 2013 7:59 pm

tag, theo smitten

she gently smiled as he yet again gave her a compliment, well, sort of, perhaps. she didn't really understand the world of sex; she knew she wanted it, but that was pretty much everything she was aware of. perhaps it really was better this way; she wasn't afraid of letting him down with her little knowledge of giving pleasure, she actually believed that nothing, at this point, could go wrong. it seemed to her that they both wanted each other desperately, even more so, they needed each other. they were both driving each other mad and at the moment, it was actually the best thing in her miserable life. the only thing she was looking forward to, actually. »i don't want you to stop, not ever,« she whispered, inside, she actually panicked for a split second. no, no, she needed him to continue, she didn't want him to part from her, as he was truly driving her insane and it felt good. for the first time ever, she felt as if she let herself go, let herself loose from everything that kept chaining her, and the feeling.. it was phenomenal.

he turned her over, continuing to kiss her with more and more passion, caressing her bare skin with his gentle touches. she began to breathe heavily, it was a new experience for her and she enjoyed every minute of it; his words made her feel warm, his kisses made her feel loved and his touches, oh god, his touches were driving her insane. »oh god,« she let out a silent scream as he passionately kissed her neck, and at the same time, his hands went quite a lot lower. »oh god, yes,« she managed to say between deep breaths, as his lips found their way to her breasts, »yes, please.« her hands got wrapped up in his hair, pulling it quite hard to get him to come back to her. and as he raised his body back again, her eyes caught his, still she didn't let loose of his hair; she only softened her grip a little.

and then, it stopped, just for a moment. all the crap she had to deal with, all the pain, everything was just gone; it felt as if his eyes were that sole comfort that she needed. they were the only thing to give her peace, to give her a sort of feeling of happiness. »i want you..« she whispered, raising her head up to his, staying less than an inch away from his lips with hers. »i want you inside me,« she whispered almost so silently that she couldn't even hear herself clearly. but she knew that he understood; he understood everything that was said, he knew, he must have known how much and how desperately she needed him to finish what they started. with those words, her legs wrapping around his, feeling every single inch of his body, the skin touching, everything was simply so erotic. »don't ask me again,« she now smiled at him, kissing his lips again.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Ned Maj 12, 2013 4:18 pm

tag, cynthia smitten

mau lame XD

For what it was worth, he wanted her to enjoy this, he put her well being before his pleasure, he simply wanted her to feel safe in his arms and he knew he couldn’t do that by simply nailing her down to the ground. And as much as she was begging to feel him inside her, he knew she wasn’t ready to take it all in. She wasn’t ready to be fucked like this just yet. Of course, he desperately wanted to obey every single word she’s said, but he also learned to listen to his own thoughts. If this was any other woman he’d probably just ram his dick inside her, but since it was Cynthia, he couldn’t. “I don’t want this to stop either,” he breathed out against her hot skin kissing onto her breasts and still running his hands down her whole body. It felt so nice to feel her, all bare skinned underneath him, so fragile and beautiful. So exposed to his touches. He kissed down her stomach as she couldn’t stop blabbing about how much she was enjoying it and, being a little bit surprised, he actually believed it. He was gentle. Probably for the first time in ages. He actually cared. Although he never did before this with her. His fingers now placed onto her centre he started rubbing her clit with one hand, holding onto hers with the other, as she started panting even heavier as she did before. God, he knew so little about her, but it freaking turned him on knowing she’s never felt this before. Knowing he was the first person to do this just for the sake of her pleasure. “Do you like that?” he muttered out as he kissed lower and replaced his fingers with his tongue, starting to thrust into her trying hard not to set her off just yet.

He threaded her fingers with hers as her back arched with pleasure, letting him know she was more than ready for what she’s begged for earlier. So he climbed back up onto, kissing every bit of her skin still. God she was beautiful, with her chest moving up and down so fast, with her heart beating so crazy he could see her skin flushing. “You’re so perfect, Cynthia, have I told you this before?” he pressed his lips against hers again and entered the head of his cock into her. She’d moan, but her mouth was full with his tongue, so instead she grasped onto his back and wrapped her legs around his, preventing him from pulling away. He started gliding in and out relentlessly, fucking her just the way she’s wanted and there was not a bit of doubt of regret in his mind left. He just wanted her so badly. “Oh shit, you’re so good,” he moaned kissing the crook of her neck, starting to feel her insides tighten around him. This warm wave crashed against their bodies as he thrust into her for the last time and ended up falling down next to her, still whispering sweet nothings into her ear. She was the best he’s ever had. It’s just as if they were made for each other. And that’s when he realized she was more to him than just a simple girl next door. He fell in love. With her. With the idea of her. With her body. He just wanted her all for himself.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Ned Maj 12, 2013 8:54 pm

tag, theo smitten

her lips were shaking, as was her whole body, actually, as he started giving her pleasures she could never imagine existed. sex, at least the first two times she practiced it, brought her nothing but pain, still here, her body was twisting in ecstasy. »ohh yes,« she cried out as his lips replaced the fingers that were so passionately caressing her. oh god, did he feel good, oh god, did he know exactly what to do. she raised one of her hands up to her forehead, she covered it, her whole body was going through a heath wave and she had no idea how to come back to her senses. the cold and absent cynthia was gone; she was there, with him, enjoying the moment as she had never enjoyed anything in her life before.. it was the only moment, the one and only after the painful rape - or perhaps even before that, the only moment in her life, really - that made her feel alive. his hands, his kisses, his skin against her own, it made her feel so special, so different than anything that she experienced before. she was alive; although at the same moment, she actually did believe she might die from the amazing pleasure she felt. it was so intense - it was so amazing.

and then he came back up on top of her, and she opened her eyes and faced his own, and finally, it seemed perhaps for the last time - her true face was shown. she was no longer the damaged and deeply hurt cynthia, she was loving and caring and she was scared because she had never done this before the proper way, and she was excited as never before, her cheeks so red she was afraid her head might explode. and then she felt him, going inside her, and her breathing became even more heavy and her moaning became louder and her hands gripped his back, fingernails pressing into his skin, oh god, she just might die from how amazing she was feeling. perhaps.. perhaps he really was the kind of man that could love her forever. the man that could make her happy; the problem was, her life was now chained to misery. even he couldn't change that.

and then she could feel the heath wave becoming even more intense, the blood rushing into her head, her head suddenly spinning. she felt as if she was drugged, as if her body landed on a whole new planet, as if.. oh god, she let out a scream as she opened her previously closed eyes, her head falling back, landing on the soft blanket; he pulled himself out, finally landing on the blanket next to her. she needed some time to catch her breath, but her mind was exploding with thoughts and she was pretty sure that her body might explode as well. »thank you,« she whispered, turning only her head in his direction, as her tired body remained still. she could feel tears behind her eyes, but she was doing her very best to keep them where they belong. »thank you so much,« she added as a tear now ran down her face, she obviously couldn't keep it all in. she was, she was so grateful for what he had done for her - for making her feel alive, just this once.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Pon Maj 13, 2013 9:21 am

tag, cynthia smitten

It seemed just as if he was a changed man with her. He was still with the mafia and he still did crappy stuff, but when he was with her, he was different. He talked differently, he even walked differently, not to mention he was as gentle as a horny man could possibly get, he just treated her the way she’s always deserved to be treated. “I don’t ... I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy,” he pulled her closer, her head falling into place. It all felt so natural, she was his. They could be happy together. They could have it all, an apartment together, he could ask Alais to move out and have her move all her stuff in with him. They could do this every day until they die. They could have a little family together. There was so many things they could do, she was still so young and, he hoped, fixable. He wanted to fix her, to make her whole again. “You could ... I mean, I could kill him for you, I’ll do anything for you, I’ll cut his dick off, just tell me who he is, please,” he begged her and pressed his lips against her sweaty forehead. God, he hated seeing her hurt. And so fragile, so used. “Or at least let me go with you, please Cynthia, will you?”

She lay still next to him, her eyes closed and her body still shivering. Perhaps she was cold, so he wrapped both his arms around her tiny self and squeezed her as tight as he could. He kept kissing her gentle skin and he focused onto her face for the first time really. She was tearing up, a tiny little tear slid down her cheek and he made sure to wipe. “Did I hurt you? Was it okay for you? Do you want me to get your clothes and help you get dressed, you name it,” he whispered kissing the bridge of her nose, pulling her even closer into his embrace. She felt so perfect there. “Please tell me if there’s anything bothering you, okay?” he started getting dressed himself. Guess this was the end of their lesson. He managed to teach her how to shoot, or at least that’s what is looked like when she successfully hit two targets using two lone bullets. He buttoned his shirt and passed her the top he sipped off her earlier. He could just have her like this forever. “If you think we should ... you know, practice again, let me know, okay? You did alright, though, you can defend yourself now, I’m sure of that.” He kept starting her way as she was getting dressed, trying to remember every single inch of her body, trying to breathe it all in. Because he had a feeling this was the last time she’ll let him get as close as she did today.

Naslov sporočila: Re: pine road Tor Maj 14, 2013 9:41 pm

tag, theo smitten

he pulled her closer and she smiled at his words, her grin being completely honest this time. he was the only person that could possibly make her feel this way and quite obviously, she had the same impact on him. and it felt good - to be someone's special someone. oh god, it was the first truly great feeling she had felt in weeks, it was as if a little ray of sunshine broke through the dark clouds that descended on her heart in these hard times. »let's not talk about that,« she finally answered after a few seconds of silence. but yet, her peace was yet again broken. the idea of the fact that the man who hurt her was still there, walking freely through the streets, possibly hurting others.. the idea was repulsive. and she knew that she will be the one to put a stop to his cruelty. yet she knew that she'd have to sacrifice herself to fulfill her vengeance plan. and that was something she truly didn't know if she was capable of. could she, when the time came, hurt someone? kill someone? only time could tell, obviously.

»no, no..« she smiled again, closing her eyes to prevent new tears from falling. she was fine, this time she really was. he made her happy and that was a lot more that she could ever expect from him. she felt as if all she needed from him previously was fuck, but now that they had done it.. she couldn't call it that. it was really like making love. he gave her everything she could ever desire and even now, when the deed was done, he was still trying to comfort her in any way possible. a month ago, she saw him as a dangerous brute, and now - there was not a trace of that man to be seen in him. »you're perfect,« she said, opening her eyes again, leaning towards him and gently kissing him on the tip of his nose. »you made me feel alive,« she finally told him exactly what this was about and what he had done to her. it was the final change she needed to go through - yet she knew it wasn't a change, strong enough, to prevent what was about to happen.

she took the shirt he gave her and pulled it over her head. after that, she took a look and quite quickly she saw her panties and shorts and got dressed completely. »i'll let you know if i'll need anything more,« she said quietly as she got off the blanket; she was still quite shaken from the amazing experience, it still felt as if standing on her own two feet was a hard thing to do alone. then she turned away from him, made a few steps and finally picked up the revolver she had previously threw away in angst. she turned back again, her eyes fixated on the beautiful piece of weapon. »thank you, theo,« she repeated what she had stated previously, catching his eye. »i hope to see you soon again,« she then added, as if she knew what was coming. and then she smiled again, then slowly turned and walked away, before he could say anything more.

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